people jiayou for o's bah.. its been quite sad reading blogs that are saying their goodbyes or simply reliving the past 4 years that they r saying bye to.. n im not part of it anymore.. i wanna be but circumstances just cannot allow me to do that.. yeah n its kinda weird to to say "our", like our class when im not sure whether im still part of it and its quite rude to say "your", like your class, as if im distancing myself away from them.. 

anywayz im probably going back in jan for my SATs.. but its not a definite plan so yeah i only can hope on..   

keyin at 30/10/05 4:07 PM | 978 comments

life

sometimes some things are just not meant to happen to u
sometimes some people are not meant for u
sometimes some things are meant to happen
sometimes some people are just meant for u, to make u c different perspectives in life..

and this is why life SUX

and my life is currently so screwed up. my family. my friends. my grades.

thus some things and some people are better off forgotten and obliterated from my life.

and don't. look. back.


guess u guys don't really understand what i mean.. above.. thus im gonna blog about more comprehensible stuff like school.. i realized im so bad at humanities and languages.. and i listed out my grades in increasing order according to subject,

ENGLISH (84, i have points cut off because i don't speak up in class and yeah we are doing KING LEAR, and yeah i totally don't understand why are we studying a playwright who has a problem with his grammar)
HISTORY (90, because i read too into the question and change my answers from right to wrong.)
ECONOMICS (94, because i don't agree with the teacher on many points and refuse to conform to his beliefs)
CHEMISTRY(96, my better grades, for chem, i love it, thus i would do well in it naturally)
CHINESE (96, its EASY for goodness's sake, we are tested on stuff that i did and can do better in sec1/2)
MATH (96, i like math, because the teacher is hilarious, and yeah i learnt all the materials in sec 2/3 (before i left)
BIOLOGY (100, i love this subject and it was pretty easy to get full marks as we have 100 questions and as long as u get 67 questions right, u get all the points and also u can pick ANY question in the entire test paper..

and my GPA is so freaking low, i probably have to say bye to UPenn and U of Mich-AA..

and whats more important.. midterms in 3 days.. wish me luck..
keyin at 28/10/05 1:47 PM | 2 comments

life in sh..

looking back at the earlier n3s.. i realized i am playing the role of a bitch now.. turning red at just the slightest joke.. im not fit company for anyone..

some things are just not meant to be.. but giving up nd forgetting can be easy to say, but hard to do.. somebody give me strength to carry on..


keyin at 02/10/05 8:38 AM | 3 comments

sometime guys could be just as petty as girls.. this ABC group in my school was having a water fight during PE.. then a girl came running after her boyfriend with a cup of water and and instead missed and dumped it over a korean guy.. and the korean guy proceeded with beating up the boyfriends.. geez guys.. seriously go get a life..

my mum got me a cup.. yes a very cute and innovative cup.. ist those type where there is a spring that winds around the the many layers of the cup and when you push it real hard it pops into its casing.. cool huh.. and i was like wouldnt water leak out.. she rolled her eyes *literally* and said then that wouldnt be a cup.. and my sister was laughing her ass off in the background.. sometimes i seriously don't use mai bRaInS..

i'm feeling so crappy nowadys.. nothing works out for me.. especially my friendship with fenny is so gonna go down the drain.. i can't stop thinking and saying bad things about her.. but i still wanna spill.. u are seriously such a self-centered and stuck up biatch.. plus a spoiled brat.. nobody cheats in the finals.. you said that you have no time to study therefore you must cheat.. yeah right who is gonna fall for that LaMe ExCuSe.. stop choosing and pickng over everything.. have a sense of selflessness(is that how i should say it??) would you?.. i feel so bad for your little brother when you bully him and take all the better things away from him.. i know your parents are not here stop you, even if they are here they would pAmPeR you OnLy but behave like a sister seriously.. the world does NOT revolve arould you.. you make me wanna puke..

ok i know that i should not have typed the last paragraph but to hell with it.. some things are just not meant to be..

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hey zhen ling i am sooooo sorrrry i kept ignoring your request for pix.. haha i will do it one day.. i promise..
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keyin at 25/06/05 10:03 AM | 4 comments

a jumble of incoherent thoughts

i got 102.5 for chemistry final.. people around me envy so much.. but for me, surprisingly, i don't feel one bit of ecstasy.. not a single bit.. surprise of the century huh.. for a person who is boastful and prides her superior ability.. she is not feeling happy, not a single teeny weeny bit.. guess whats the highest score in the whole level? 103.. what a fucking 103.. just a fucking 0.5 points.. life is just so fucking cruel to me..
My goal was 110..yeah thats the full score because there was 2 bonus questions.. people say i am out of my mind but.. i knew how to do every single fucking god damned screwed up question.. the problem is just that i didnt have enough time to do it.. i am so disappointed in myself.. i overestimated myself.. i asked for too much.. i wanted 110, instead reality came knocking on my door, a 102.5.. and the next paragraph is dedicated to myself and people will see what a pompous ass i have become

1st Galen 103
2nd ME    102.5
3rd David 97
4th Xinyi  88

notice the difference between the 3rd place n 4th place, n among the first 3 only I am a member of the female species who is supposedly more intellectually inferior than the male series.. thats such a stereotype..

i'm such a screw up.. i get a score which only 1 guy is close to and higher than and here i am complaining about it.. then to make myself better i turn into a BIATCH.. people just ignore me..

In conclusion, I'm such a total failure
keyin at 24/06/05 10:37 AM | 2 comments

what i learnt in RV.. the skills and knowledge.. really will be alot of help in my life.. i can't find the right words to express my gratitude.. but thanks.. although i was a really bad student.. ms aik went harvard as a graduate student.. i am gonna make it my goal too.. jiayo keyin.. i would not repeat what i did in RV.. the days of complete procrastination.. In retrospect, those 2 and a half years of my life was a total failure.. but something which can remind not to do anything like it again, a lesson in life.. but i learnt alot really.. some things just hammered into my brain and sticked on like Uhu glue.. haha i'm grateful.. if one day i were walking down the road to the gates of an Ivy league college like harvard.. i would think of RV..how it helped shaped my life..
and the time has come, its gonna be finals.. people jiayo..
 
VERITAS    (MOTTO OF HARVARD)

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sg this message is for your.. do not become what i was.. do something with your life.. you are the smartest(not included galen and andrew and the top 10 guys) guy i've seen.. do not wait till its too late...
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keyin at 21/06/05 1:34 PM | 3 comments

mwahaha sleepover

mwahaha had so much fun having a sleepover at sharlene's house.. woohoo.. had a barbecue first.. mwahaha so many outrageous poses with the barbecue sticks.. then comes the retake of the music video All I Have by j.lo featuring lily and michelle (me).. mwahaha then made myself a laughingstock by climbing over the wall of lily's house.. first time i climbed a wall.. had such a memorable time.. then we made sushi together.. yum yum.. everybody was laughing at the sushi i made.. basically it just looked like a lump of fried rice rolled together.. mwahaha.. then we watched cheaper by the dozen and britney spears hits videos.. mwahaha i set a life goal of having 3 sets of twins.. sounds mad but hell.. they are soooooooo cute.. then came ps 2 and uno.. mwahaha loser had to let winners draw on the face.. anyone wanna see the moustache i had??.. mwahaha and i am so in love with racing on ps 2.. mwahaha gonna buy a ps 2 when i have saved enough money.. then it was just basicall chatting and chatting and chatting till the morn.. then ps 2 again and tennis..

haha basically i am just narrating what happened in chronological order.. sound so boring.. hehe.. hmm something else..

we are having 2 days break after mid term exams, monday and tuesday no school and then we have to go to school from wednesday to saturday( yes saturday we have sch) .. then it is labor day holiday till the next saturday.. have to go back to school on sunday.. wtf.. china's education system is mad..

keyin at 23/04/05 11:46 AM | 4 comments