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 For KiD, with love
The story started 5 years ago and it will never end.
Fate brought us together. I was a new immigrant, you were experienced Singaporean. The first features i noticed about you were your sweet smile and your long black hair. I was too shy to approach you before the PSLE. I managed to help you with your Chinese just before the exams.
I still remember the day I asked you for your autograph on my notebook. You only wrote a few lines when I asked you to write something on the book. Later I approached you again for more, you asked me what more did I want you to write. It would not have mattered. I just wanted to know more about you.
We were both in the Falcon group for the p6 camp. We had lots of fun. I hope you liked the birthday gift I gave you right after the camp. It would be a long time before I see you again.
We lost contact for the 3 years. The new environments kept me busy. I had no time to look back to the past and savour our moments together. Slowly, you were lost in my sea of memories.
November 30, 2003, more than 3 years I have last seen you, was my last day in Singapore. It was the last time I saw you. I never expected you to turn up at the airport. You still looked the way you used to in yuhua, only prettier and more matured.
We only had a few brief minutes before I depart for canada. would this me the last time we would ever see each other again?
I managed to see "you" in June 2004 on friendster under the most unlikely circumstances. I was looking for my rv friends. I came across an account with two girls as the display picture. One of the girls resembled you almost exactly. When i checked it out, i found you name...
Fate, after putting us together after my first immigration, decided to reunite us after my second immigration. How circular life can be...
July 12 was our first msn chat. I learned more about you than all the time we had in those two years. You are a bubbly girl who is the sunshine in any group. Your "okie pokie"s and joyful nature really revived the lost child inside me. It was a dream to be talking to such an angel that never fails to cheer you up.
it took us another month for us to start having regular chats. Once addicted, I will feel very down if i fail to talk to you online for one day. I realized how important you are in my life, but I never dared to say it out loud yet, because if I do, I may ruin our renewed friendship.
My "fall" off my chair brought me an angel as my best friends. The care you show to your friend even though you knew it was not real encouraged me to tell you how I really felt about you. My email to you on 9.9.2004 sums it up all. In the hope that it will not sound too scary, I claimed I have a crush on you. to me utter surprise, you said you had the same feeling for me. We agreed that the feelings will die away eventually. I hoped I will never lose that feeling for you, and I never did.
As time went by, it became harder for us to have regular conversations for our O levels are near and my first year in IB was getting hectic too. The more I don't talk to you, the more I feel lost.
On October 19, I decided to confess for the second time that I am not only having a crush on you but I love you and I want you to be my first girlfriend. I know this relationship, if it starts at all, will not last for if we cannot seen each other, it is hard to maintain it. As naive as I was, I believed that if we really love each other, we can always visit each other in Singapore or Canada and play in the snow with me. The promise both of us are still looking forward to up to this day. Your line "can I treat you more than a best friend?" was the sweetest I have ever heard. I had tried and failed to scare you by my line and you really "scared" me with your response. October 19, it marked the start of my first "relationship". An unforgettabled day.
Happiness never lasts too long, however. We stopped talking online after three days. I expected it to happen because it was our O levels and it is understandable that under these circumstances, you will not have time to come online. I felt guilty that I did not manage to wish you good luck for one of the most important exams of your life. Being worried for you, I asked your sister to send my love to you and hope you will do well. This was where I did wrong.
By the time, we see each other again online a month later. You informed me on how your sister had betrayed my trust and enraged your parents. It was a terrible experience because for the first time in half a year, I felt miserable. I knew the relationship could no longer continue. I suggested a break-up and we had no choice but to accept it. You left me almost immediately after that.
That day was the worst of my life. I was not very hard-hit that I have lost my first love, it was because I may have lost my best friend whom I have came to love in the part months. Who else do I have other than you that I can confide to if you have decided to let me go and wander into the dark abyss of solitude?
From that day onwards, I felt I was alone in the world with no more interested in my well-being as well as you were just a few weeks ago. As time flew by, I thought I have lost you forever as my best friend.
The year 2005 was coming and I did not look forward to it. The second half of 2004 contained both my happiest and the saddest moments of my life . I felt I lost you again. Finally, I called you just before the new year with the numbers you gave me in primary six. It worked. You reassured me that we are still best of friends and you were just too busy to come online. I was relieved. Not all was lost.
After the new year, you reappeared from time to time. We started talking about the things we used to the year before. We never shunned away from sharing our secrets with each other and I hope I have inspired you as much as you have inspired me over the years. We are bestest friends for each other. I wish you and your “special one” to reunite soon and also, happy bday!
You wrote once "I hope that we will always remember the good old times...". I will remember, you are my sweetest gain. . and I will never let fate take you away from me again...best friends forever! =)
love,
TeeN 10.23.2005 3:19am Eastern
edited 1:02pm
edited 11.3.2005 12:33am Eastern
edited 11.8.2005 10:17pm Eastern
Hui 23/10/05 7:18 AM Comments (76)
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