i am almost sure that i do not want to go hci anymore le. my mind is almost set. i won't be working hard to get into that school. hate them hate them hate them

i think the stress has been getting into me. wanted to revise for the holidays de, but looks like i have failed really miserably. i have been sleeping away for the most of my holidays.. someone tell me wad to do leh.. grr... damn sian..

wanna play soccer with the NS guys again leh.. cuz i wan exercise and jian fei.. playing with them always give me a sense of satisfaction de..

hmm.. tmr moe officials come.. sian.. think i was very harsh to my juniors on last tuesday.. must learn to let go le.. i need a break nw.. what can i say? i have already put in my best.. what else can i do???

arghh.. this entry is meaningless..  i dun wan say anymore le.. tired.. really really tired... haiz.. let me sleep bah.. sleep forever... ='(

i must really learn how to let go. i dun tink i can handle this anymore..

urgh. oh well, common test is pretty screwed up la can?

HCL C5
EL B4 (estimate)
e'maths B3
a'maths B4
phy C6
chem B4
Hist B4 (estimate)
SSG B3

L1R5 : 22

oh well. this is no good right, estimate A1s for both maths de, in the end, lose 11 marks just because of carelessness, got suan-ed by teacher for whole lesson can? URGH. nvm la right? common test is over le can? URGH. buck up for end of year la right? i am not stupid la right? can do it de la right? EOY here i come !!!! URGH !

haiz. not more physical punishment. oh my. makes us so gay sia.

orienteering - 17 sep.
nervous? of course.
can they do it? ______ (fill in the blank)
do i believe in them? i always do.

lalalala~~ still dreaming.. as usual.. wake up wake up.. start performing to what my potential is bah.. lalala.. can i do it ? but of course =DDD

left a'maths and chem. haiz. failed my physics. 20/50. haha, at least i passed overall, 50.5/100 -.- my explanations sucks la. then i scrape past A2 for my geog =) as for the rest, i have no idea, i got a feeling that it is being pretty screwed up as well. haish. nvm, gotta buck up for EOY, and ultimately, o' levels is all that matters.

to all my cca juniors, especially the sec2s, (if you are reading this), all your results (napfa and shooting) so far have not really been fabulous. the award that we have attained is already very shaky, try to buck up from now, especially the sec2s, win the orienteering competition for RVNCC, win it back for us. all my hopes are pinned on you all le, dun let me down. put in your best; please reciprocate the amount of effort i put in all of you; it's no one-man show, you know it too. will talk to you all soon.. jiayou.
i got faith in all of you.

more and more recently, i feel that i really dun wan to let him down. to be fair, he's not that bad, and frankly speaking, i duno what i had done to deserve all these things; it only motivates me to work harder and repay his faith in me.

overseas youth programme =DDD

hmm. that's all. i will buck up from now. and i am sure i can do it as well =)

haiz. so much has happened ever since i last blogged. haha, i am finally updating this blog !!

eh. sort of finished my revision for chinese liao. but i cannot even rmb 60% of the words. haha. let memory take over me tmr bah, i know i will be able to scrape past the chinese paper tmr de. =D
come and think of it, it's so not worth it. if i nvr study for chinese, i could have perhaps finished revision for 2,3 more subjects. hmm. nvm. let's hope that lady luck will continue to shine at me! like it always have been =)

well, we are seniors now already. haha. seniors in council. seniors in cca. and very soon, seniors in the school. it is not easy to be a senior, becuz you know that whatever you do will influence your juniors. being given this tag is not simple. my predecessors all have the aura with them. i am worried. do i have that aura too? will i have that aura? am i a lousy choice? i duno. it's not easy to live up to the name. it's not.

yup. gotta try my best in everything i do now bah. as long as my target is clear, my mind is focused, i know i will be able to reach the destination that i want and achieve whatever i hoped of in the end.

haha. may the aura of my predecessors bless me in this upcoming common test ! =pPp tink i am mad abt them liao. muahahaha. i won't disappoint. i won't. =D

everyone, jia you for upcoming tests bah! take a break if you need, dun tire yourself out =)

ha. feel so relieved now best unit it's not a dream. one year down the road today, i want to be part of the best unit =D
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stop giving me your f***king attitude. please don't take your position for granted. what's the problem with you? do you know that how much it reflects badly on you when you say that you want someone to take over your place. come on, get your ideas right. since you are given that position, take it with responsibility and passion. stop giving me the heck care attitude.

i am willing to carry the whole burden. i am already prepared to do so. but i know i have a group of capable people who are always willing to help me share the burden. thankful :D

come on, best unit. it's not a dream. as long as we believe we can, then we can. we have the potential to do so.

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ok. let's update abt my life. ehh. failed my geog test, 4/10.. got 55/90 for chinese. haha.not very good. will continue to strive harder de.
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best unit best unit best unit best unit

haha. shall update abt step now. a very brief update bah.

first day. went to st gabriel's college there de dormitory. played some icebreakers. got to know the thai buddies. played some traditional games and stuff like that. nothing much.

second day. woke up at 6. lmao. breakfast was cool and i drank 4 bottles of milk. lol. then we went to the palaces. argh. been there last year. but it doesn't matter, still quite enjoyable, took some funny pictures there. hahaha. also visited the royal barges. spectatcular view.. haha.. something like that la.. went for the opening ceremony at night. had fun there. even though the speech and performance were quite dry, but overall, the night was fun. haha. and it was also during this night that we discovered my thai buddy's affair with beiru's buddy. lol.

third day. went to the national park. also visited the oprchards where we had a great time picking the rambutans. had a long journey back to maldives beach and resort hotel. dun be fooled by its name. it isn't some grand hotel lo. hahaha. had a walk rally, something like telematch.. quite fun.. then back to sleep le..

fourth day. visited the mangrove plantation. although it's quite dirty, but it was fun. haha. hmm. took a very beautiful picture there. went back, took a shower, then went to the study groups. i must say that it is quite boring bah. but the scenery was as usual, wow! went to the gem and jewellry factory.. haha.. not interested.. firefly tour was lame.. cuz got no fireflies de lo..

fifth day was mainly travelling to bangkok bah. went to mabukong and shop. had a fun time there.

sixth day. haha. we copied homework while they are conducting lessons. and i was mysteriously rmb as son of the sun. haha. lame-d.
hmm. nothing much again.

seventh day. two more days before the end of it all. spent the whole day preparing for the closing ceremony. i couldn't rmb much. except that i missed home badly the whole day.

eight day. last day. went to the weekend market and shopped like siao. spend finish my money. but very shuang. hahaha.. then im back to s'pore finally le.

btw, i abandon my hw le. realised that i left my chi hw there, maths also !!! grr..  just wanna take a good rest today and prepare me for the term.. haiz..

is this what you call fate?

Cause I want it all or nothing at all
There's nowhere left to fall
When you've reached the bottom
It's now or never
Is it all or are we just friends
Is this how it ends
With a simple telephone call
You leave me here with nothing at all