I ain't going to beg people for anything. I will not do it. few days more. i don't know. really regret trusting.

the worse thing that you can do to yourself is not to inflict pain on yourself but instead it is to doubt yourself. when doubt enters your mind, it becomes difficult to do many things. you are shackled and no one has the key except yourself. do you have the courage to unlock it?

i don't know what to say. i really don't. why!?! i don't deny that i am disappointed. i still cannot come to terms with it. you failed your dentistry and pharmacy application. dentistry i am fine with it, more than fine with it. but pharmacy. based on what do i not qualify for it? someone give me a reason that i can accept. based on the number of As, how you rank your choices...? i don't know. it seems like a mockery. getting As and not getting the courses you want. give me a reason to convince me that i really do not qualify for pharmacy.

i really don't know. i feel so lost now. i can't help but break down into tears. sit alone at the staircase and cry.

it doesn't feel good when your document crashed. when two weeks of work just went down the drain. i almost burst into tears. maybe i did. i don't know. now opening the document and see the misery 3 pages left seems like a mockery. such things are bad for the heart. the feeling of exasperation is horrible and indescribable.

this seems like it will be an emo post. anyway this is my blog so i don't care.

first the natural disasters happening around the world makes me ponder over ms tan's words. it might be nature's way of population control. just like how humans are destroying the earth but it might again be nature's way of revolutionizing. interesting huh. one day human beings will cease to exist - i don't doubt that but it's just a matter of when. as our hearts go out to the victims of these natural disasters, we should also take this time to reflect and really treasure things and people around us.

and i've been thinking about friends. jc friends, sec sch friends, pri sch friends. i find it sad that some people only have a current social group. once they graduate from an instituition they don't look back nor keep in touch with the people whom meant so much to them previously. it's just an irony isn't it. people who will keep in touch always will no matter where they've gone, people who won't never will. i notice a trend. people who say "keep in touch" never does. this theory is almost always correct. we are have our lives to lead now be it work or play. i am thankful for the few that still keep in touch with me. they are people who really matters. i don't need to have a lot friends. just a few really important ones will do. haha.